'DEPRESSION ... ME? Oh, No ...!'

Some days I lose orientation of life.
Whatever I did was never completed. Everything is pending. Does it work, lectures, writings, even my relationships. I do not know what went wrong. There's something wrong with me. There is no sync between me and my brain.

In employment. There is a new policy, recent changes in management reshuffle center, which requires that I and my colleagues to interact faster with the new job and learn again, merging publishing company under the auspices of the center where I worked for about five years.

I'm personally not too troubled by the new interaction if it is not too demanding great responsibility. But my professional life requires me personally to be more self discipline and time in the company's job to hand it to me.

I demanded my professional soul to be more 'responsible'. Responsibility in terms of inventory stock should be noted, can not be empty or too thin. Responsibility in terms of product sales analysis. Items in demand, a moderate and relatively slow sales. Responsibility with the development of competing products whose products together with our company, it is also important. Because of what competitors are marketed and sold in the market it will also be a material consideration of the company to produce it as well. Whether it is called plagiarism product or not, a definite world of publishing and marketing is not much difference. Responsibilities of product information to the market, in which case the consumer, it is also important. Due to market a product, if we did not control the product itself, then we will find it hard to market it, and where necessary re-learning. In essence, the responsibility of professionals in total employment is really what I should do and apply from now on. And, it challenged me personally, but I do not want to humble myself alone on my inability to handle the problem.

My professional soul sue me for more 'discipline'. Discipline of time, of course. Time to work in the morning, lectures in the evenings, writing in the rest of the day as strong as possible I provide to my hobby, until sometimes I did not sleep till morning. 'Discipline' is sometimes missed, which I sometimes do not follow, the discipline that sometimes only on paper without me doing in real life. Discipline that I should really fix from now on, if you want my life back like I want.

Discipline is sometimes destroy my body. But, what I have to give up? No!

I want to be successful in my job and my education. I sometimes fail in one thing, but that does not mean I have failed in all things. I may fall, but had to get up again! I may be tired and quit, but only briefly and then continue again.

I want to live like my dreams they are. I want to be a field editor. I want to be a successful writer. I want to continue education as high until I no longer able to think and act, until I die.

God. Give me a chance to start all over again. For all of them.




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